For as long as I can remember, I have disliked things about my body.
When I was a kid, I hated the gap in my teeth. My big lips. The acne on my skin. My kid belly. Even my feet. I was so self-conscious of myself, constantly playing the comparison game with people around me and on television.
As I got older, it only got worse. I told myself no guy would ever like me. My hair wasn’t cute enough. My clothes weren’t on trend enough. I was a nerd. I was a Christian. I didn’t go out. I stuck close to the few friends I had and created a place of safety.
Sadly though, that place wasn’t safety. It was just safe. Don’t get me wrong, there’s nothing wrong with safe and having legit friends who support you. But, I was afraid to do more or be different. And that’s where I crippled myself.
In two weeks, I’ll be 28 years old and I’m just starting to love myself completely. I’m just starting to come to terms with the fact that my backside and thighs are noticeable to people in good ways and bad. I’m just realizing that those big lips I hated as a kid are now a commodity people wish they had, and they’re beautiful. People love me for my quirky personality and it’s okay to be an outcast (in the eyes of “the people”).
As the saying goes, there are people in this world who will love you for exactly who you are. But do you love yourself?
Those things you find disgusting about your body or your personality could be the very thing that others love about you. So what some dirtball told you that your looks aren’t up to their standards? Who are they, really?? They shouldn’t be up to your standards!
Psalms 139, verse 14 says “I will praise thee; for I am fearfully and wonderfully made: marvellous are thy works; and that my soul knoweth right well.” No one has to convince me that I mean anything to them once I have come to the knowledge that I am a fearfully and wonderfully made being, marvellously created by an awesome Creator. He’s one who makes no mistakes in what He does. And “my soul knows this right well”. Without a shadow of doubt, I know that I’m wonderful.
All these negative things that we tell ourselves aren’t anything but lies.
These things we say to ourselves about ourselves, are contradictory to what God has already said about us and what we should know about ourselves.
So instead of giving life to the negative voices already inside my head, I did what I could do to kill the voices that resided inside me for years. This isn’t to say that it’s something easy to do. Like I said, I’m 28 and I’m just now coming to grips with my greatness. What I am saying is that, I have decided to not walk around with bad energy about myself everyday. I have chosen to love myself. And you should too. You’re the only one who has to be with you all day, 24/7. And no one wants to be around someone who’s constantly tearing them down all day. Instead choose to find one wonderful thing about yourself everyday and hold on to that awesomeness. In the discovery of the small things, you begin to piece together how great you really are.
All my Love,